I was throwing out old and unfinished journals (actually more like journal pages, and then I recycled the notebooks as language study notebooks) and I came across this page which was all about an older man I used to obsess about (okay it wasn't really an obsession but upon realizing what kind of person he actually is I realize it was one crazy phase) and that time I found out he does not like to drink and likes tea a lot which at that time felt like a sign that omg-we-were-meant, but then of course, I was such a delulenoid, not that I am blaming myself. So anyway I found that out and it was such a big deal that it is actually quite embarrassing right now :D
|Some of the hearts are just overlays. Oh, and there was also a moment that time when he smiled his wise-old-man-kind-of-smile at me and I felt so Noticed. Anyway and there goes the last f*@# I gave *looks through a spyglass*|
Eventually all this led me into thinking about how girls and women sometimes fuss about a man's every action, or put meaning into every little thing a man says or does, even when he does not even bother to look twice, or even LOOK, for more than 2 seconds. And just as I was thinking of that on the way to my room, I heard something along the lines of "I shall do everything to make him like me" from something my mom was watching on TV, and it led me even further to thoughts of:
Creating Silly Love Problems In the Absence of Real Problems Because Really, Some Women Seem to Feed On Problems Whether Imagined Or Not
Women who think, "I shall do EVERYTHING, ANYTHING!!! Just to be noticed or loved by the man I like/want/love" are women who really have no problems, so they create one, even if it is something really silly and shallow.