Yesterday morning, I woke up agitated. I realized there was something I needed to change about how I set my goals and how I went about trying to accomplish them. Suddenly, an idea came to me on how I should do it better, so I got up and totally skipped my morning exercise, and immediately settled in front of the computer, putting into writing the idea that came to me, and in the process, changing the manner of how I tried to achieve my many goals all at the same time. (Basically, it involved listing down all my set goals and reviewing them, adding some and taking out some, then listing them by priority, then by category, then listing down action steps, reasons for wanting to achieve that goal, current practices being observed, etc. etc. - feel free to leave a comment or message for those of you want to learn more, or are having trouble with goal setting~) After about two and a half hours, I was done, and I immediately felt so much more peaceful and so much lighter than I did when I woke up (and apparently, when I slept the night before).
|One of the things that help clear my mind|
I did not realize I had been quite anxious about the little things I noticed recently, particularly those that did not seem to work or "feel right" to me anymore. So finally, after yesterday morning's sudden idea and unplanned reorganizing of my goal list and resetting many of them, I found myself feeling much lighter afterward and more focused on whatever I had to do. It made such a huge difference to have cleared my head.
A number of things help clear my mind especially when things seem to have gone awry or when I am totally blinded by all sorts of negative thoughts. Some of them include:
1. Reading the Tao Te Ching
2. Clutter-clearing or Seriously Cleaning parts of the house as though an evil spirit lurked in it
3. Stopping to "listen" (or Doing Nothing, or like in the movie "Megane," "twilighting")
4. Spending time with pets
5. Talking a long walk or stepping out for a run
Anyway I just feel quite relieved from yesterday. However, in other news, my mind has gone beyond clear when it came to my Japanese adjectives and kanji (>.<) More specifically, my mind has gone blank (^^U) I have not reviewed in a long time and only managed to do so very few times since my last class. So this morning I opened one of my books and reviewed for a while. Somehow, studying gives me a different kind of peace and happiness too (of course as long as I like the subject).
|Kawaii = lovely; cute (You know, like my pencil and my bookmark :3)|
With regard to my goal to go back to school for this, it has been placed after the more urgent goals that concern by bills and finances; same with my travel and home goals. It seems quite a long way to them now after I have reorganized everything, but at least things are much clearer to me now in terms of what to prioritize and what specific action steps I need to take. I trust that eventually, possibly even sooner than I expect, I will get there (^_^)